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Since the last post, much has happened. My life is so action packed, I cant believe it has only been a week. I know it is nice to have much to do and your life move slowly, but school needs to be out now.
Wednesday was the seniors last day at the high school. Not mine, I didn't even show up. I went to school and had a horrible day of it. There is something about showing up to an easy class and taking a horrifically easy test that you cannot do because you dont know a certain theorem the prof mentioned in passing the one day you weren't there. THEN! the last day teaching swim lessons in for a while. Don't get me wrong, I like to teach the kids to swim, but when you are already kind of stressed out from school and social tension and no sleep it is all you can do to not STRANGLE them when they won't shut up. I can't wait to teach people with more maturity a subject that I care more deeply about. Luckily I get to start tutoring in physics next year.
Also wednesday, I bought 54$ worth of music. Best of Led Zepplin, Best of Hendrix, Genesis Foxtrot, Dark Side of the Moon. Good times. After work, I fixed my bosses comp (DO NOT let little kids online, the viruses they can get are amazingly bad), took a shower so I smelled all pretty and not like Cl2, and headed off towards what I thought was a wonderful movie theater. However, I learned that the armrests do NOT go completely back and hit your head if you try, and the seats in the third row make it hard to see the whole screen. Star Wars was great. I thought the wookies and R2D2 were a bit forced, and Anakin could have had some more exposition, and the end was 18 years before the origonal trilogy yet it seemed like 2 years. It was good though, and I had fun. I saw it with Felicia and it was fun to hang out with her again. I am so glad I have cool freinds, all different, but all special and wonderful in their own little ways. Speaking of special people, Nick wrote a song for the seniors last chapel day at CHCA. I was lucky enough to sort of help inspire him on some of the lyrics, and when he previewed it to the head chapel man, they rearranged the entire program to put that song last. I was also cool enough to get a sneak preview of it before the general public wednesday night. Unfortunately, I was not in the general public earlier today, so I haven't seen the whole thing.
On a personal note, I have been doing a lot of thinking about myself, how I interact with people, and my emotions. I decided that I should savor each emotion that crosses my path because they can come in some amazing flavors and the diversity is beautiful. That being said, one of my most favorite emotions so far in life is that of a childish crush. It is so nonsensical and euphoric and I love every second of it. When the mere thought of someone sends your senses exploding into excitement, it is hard to beat. I now consider my interactions with people like a cube with different faces. One face is for the different ways you can know me. One for my good freinds, one for God, one for a girlfreind, one for acquantances. The one with freinds interfaces well with most other people if I show it to them. It accepts any rough edges their cubes may have and allows for good deep real conversations. I think it leaves me quite open and vunerable, but I hope that never becomes an issue, my freinds are too cool for that. Then there is the side for the girlfreind. It seems to me that this particular side is very demanding. Not that I have unnecassarily high standards (to quote Lennon again, "Do you neeeeeed anybody? I need somebody to love. Could it beeeeeeee anybody? I want somebody to love.") I just want somebody who I can love and who can love me in return. Is that too much to ask? I used to make lists of attributes I wanted in a person. It doesn't matter. The brain doesn't completely control the heart. I envy people like Nick who can feel love so easily and often (although too often can be bad as well), whereas I cannot remember what love feels like if I ever felt it at all. I don't feel like love isn't meant for me, I feel like I am such a hard fit that very few people can come close unless they are the one I am made specially for. It is kind of frusterating at times.
In other news, I feel like the lone defender of the English language on the internet at times. It is absolutely dreadful what some of these people do to syntax and grammar. Read high school Xangas and AIM conversations if you do not believe me.
Anyways. Hope you all have a good weekend. I will be preparing for my Graduation party. I think that everyone who could find this blog between now and sunday is already invited, so that works. I need to go and die now, sleep doesn't happen, it runs.
Wednesday was the seniors last day at the high school. Not mine, I didn't even show up. I went to school and had a horrible day of it. There is something about showing up to an easy class and taking a horrifically easy test that you cannot do because you dont know a certain theorem the prof mentioned in passing the one day you weren't there. THEN! the last day teaching swim lessons in for a while. Don't get me wrong, I like to teach the kids to swim, but when you are already kind of stressed out from school and social tension and no sleep it is all you can do to not STRANGLE them when they won't shut up. I can't wait to teach people with more maturity a subject that I care more deeply about. Luckily I get to start tutoring in physics next year.
Also wednesday, I bought 54$ worth of music. Best of Led Zepplin, Best of Hendrix, Genesis Foxtrot, Dark Side of the Moon. Good times. After work, I fixed my bosses comp (DO NOT let little kids online, the viruses they can get are amazingly bad), took a shower so I smelled all pretty and not like Cl2, and headed off towards what I thought was a wonderful movie theater. However, I learned that the armrests do NOT go completely back and hit your head if you try, and the seats in the third row make it hard to see the whole screen. Star Wars was great. I thought the wookies and R2D2 were a bit forced, and Anakin could have had some more exposition, and the end was 18 years before the origonal trilogy yet it seemed like 2 years. It was good though, and I had fun. I saw it with Felicia and it was fun to hang out with her again. I am so glad I have cool freinds, all different, but all special and wonderful in their own little ways. Speaking of special people, Nick wrote a song for the seniors last chapel day at CHCA. I was lucky enough to sort of help inspire him on some of the lyrics, and when he previewed it to the head chapel man, they rearranged the entire program to put that song last. I was also cool enough to get a sneak preview of it before the general public wednesday night. Unfortunately, I was not in the general public earlier today, so I haven't seen the whole thing.
On a personal note, I have been doing a lot of thinking about myself, how I interact with people, and my emotions. I decided that I should savor each emotion that crosses my path because they can come in some amazing flavors and the diversity is beautiful. That being said, one of my most favorite emotions so far in life is that of a childish crush. It is so nonsensical and euphoric and I love every second of it. When the mere thought of someone sends your senses exploding into excitement, it is hard to beat. I now consider my interactions with people like a cube with different faces. One face is for the different ways you can know me. One for my good freinds, one for God, one for a girlfreind, one for acquantances. The one with freinds interfaces well with most other people if I show it to them. It accepts any rough edges their cubes may have and allows for good deep real conversations. I think it leaves me quite open and vunerable, but I hope that never becomes an issue, my freinds are too cool for that. Then there is the side for the girlfreind. It seems to me that this particular side is very demanding. Not that I have unnecassarily high standards (to quote Lennon again, "Do you neeeeeed anybody? I need somebody to love. Could it beeeeeeee anybody? I want somebody to love.") I just want somebody who I can love and who can love me in return. Is that too much to ask? I used to make lists of attributes I wanted in a person. It doesn't matter. The brain doesn't completely control the heart. I envy people like Nick who can feel love so easily and often (although too often can be bad as well), whereas I cannot remember what love feels like if I ever felt it at all. I don't feel like love isn't meant for me, I feel like I am such a hard fit that very few people can come close unless they are the one I am made specially for. It is kind of frusterating at times.
In other news, I feel like the lone defender of the English language on the internet at times. It is absolutely dreadful what some of these people do to syntax and grammar. Read high school Xangas and AIM conversations if you do not believe me.
Anyways. Hope you all have a good weekend. I will be preparing for my Graduation party. I think that everyone who could find this blog between now and sunday is already invited, so that works. I need to go and die now, sleep doesn't happen, it runs.
posted by Duncan Ohio at 11:50 PM
1 Comments:
Howdy Derek! I got your eprops..thanks! And yeah, I definately DO know I'm weird, to which I must respond: "look who be talking". Anyway. Now I'm giving you eprops, even though you're not on xanga. First of all, to quote the Blues Brothers, "Everybody, needs somebody, everybody, needs somebody to love! Someone to love. Sweetheart to miss! Sugar to kiss! I need you, you, you!"...and so on and so forth. When I saw the quotes you put in your little entry thats what I thought of, cuz, ah, the Blues Brothers are wonderful. And now on a more serious note...the love thing. You are a hard fit. But so is everyone else. God made us, and there is someone else out there for us. You're young, and you have a long long long long God filled, wonderful, enjoying every moment, life ahead of you and there's no rush to go out and fall in love. So s l o w d o w n and just enjoy life while you have it, and find the wonder in everything God made. Everything else...including love...will come to you in time.
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