Long Day

Really long hard day. Recently I went shopping for my dorm room. It was surreal, like a different person. Then I spent a last night with the fearsome fivesome, the air band, or whatever you want to call us. We were all so sad, but had a great time. John got us all toweleries with our names on them, Nick got us really nice framed pictures of those four doing the air band, and everyone got a T-shirt with "THE AIR BAND" on the front in a cool font, and something on the back. Mine says "Will you do the Fandango?"

I don't want to leave them, yet Joe left yesterday, and I leave Friday. I will leave them, and move on, but screw it, I don't want to. I don't care if it's normal or common for people to leave thier friends and grow apart from them, then never be really close again. I have never been normal and do not intend to start anytime soon. I can buck the trend. If I think it is inevitable it will be, but if I know I can stay close to them and they know they can stay close to me through and after college, we can do it.
I have decided that females pass through a stage in thier life around the end of junior year. They start to become more secure in who they are, and it shines through thier natural beauty, which isn't in neutral or reverse itself, to make them incredibly beautiful and amazing people. I REALLY wish I would have discovered this about a year ago. I will have to write sometime about how I see beauty in the world, whenever I talk about it I end up poetic and using some wonderful imagery.
Rough draft of a new song. yay.

Slow mournful verse
They say I must part ways
To leave everyone behind
Start new and better days
move on with my life
meet new people
But I can't leave you

Chorus, emphatic major chord stuff
Slit my throat, I will keep on breathing
Hold Death at bay by the power of my love for you
I don't care if I must leave and find someone new
I refuse to give up what we have, what we've had, what will be.
You mean to much to me

Instrumental Solo over Chorus changes
Write another verse, continue soloing in background
Chorus again




Bridge, driving
I can't leave you
I can't leave you
I can't leave you
I can't leave you
I can't leave behind what I need ahead
I can't stand it
I can't stand it
I can't stand it
I can't stand it
I can't stand against the wind of change alone

Big Musical solo

Chorus again
Ritard into
Slow Hymn ending
Oh God change my heart, if my will be not yours.
I beg you not to make me leave
You blessed me with comrades
don't make them leave me
I could keep them close forever
But I can't bear for us to part ways