Waiting games

French, Money, and Confusion.

French is a language that is quite hard to grasp. If I continue for one more quarter, I get a certificate with my diploma, and probably make myself eligible for some study abroad options, however, it is quite difficult in the meantime. First week, already two papers.

Money. Tomorrow is the deadline for UC to decide who gets the Cincinnatus Scholarship. I plan to blog the results, for better or worse. I am dreading the results because they may be unfavorable, but I can't stand the waiting, I want to know because it is holding up the rest of my life quite a bit. Like Schrodinger's cat, the box opens tomorrow and all but one possibility is dead.

Confusion. I heard that girls talk about me in the women's locker room at work. Things that would make a married woman blush. I am scared.

Day 1, spring quarter

Last night Nick and I were in a poetic mood, and my results became published as the previous post. I would like to take more time to write poetry. Actually, I would like to take more time to do a whole lot of stuff; piano, learn guitar, write fiction, write poetry, work out, swim, learn martial arts, learn gaelic arabic and japanese, read a book. I hope to accomplish the more important of these sometime when I no longer have this thing called a commute.... or at least a two hour a day one.

Things are going well, I am between classes the second day of spring quarter. I went to IU with my family yesterday as a college visit, so I missed the first day of class for two classes. IU is a good school, but not the best for physics. They make it incredibly easy to minor in anything, and are very good about letting you take any course you want. But UC is still first in my heart, I pray that Cincinnatus comes through, that would make my day/life.

Have to go to lecutre.

Confusiored

I struggle against my adversary
called chaos by his foes
he trips me up with his random paths
and mocks all suff'ring from his woes

I struggle against this adversary
he dogs my ev'ry footfall
throwing my mind for a loop
with physics and love and he will appall

At times I think I have him pinned
held at bay and life is sorted out
then he appears to knock me off my path
holds me by the ankles and swings me about
he laughs and says, "and now it starts to get crazy."

Good Friday

Today is Good Friday. I am about to eat dinner and then the family is going to go to church. I look forward to the Good Friday service every year and this year is no exception, but I am really starting to tire of my church. Not the people, the pastors are amazing and cool, the kids are all really nice, and the adults are very cool (and all good cooks too). No, I am tiring of the politics of church. The power games that are played between different people over silly little things are disgusting. People should be asking how they can best serve God, not how they can control everything, especially in the church. For the most part, people don't realize that they are doing this, but their motivations are not the greatest. As a church we do not have a contemporary service, and almost everyone dislikes the hymns week after week. We use CIRRICULUMS in the sunday schools, and we don't have home Bible studies. This past year I have really been cutting back on the attending church. I have in no way been backing out of my faith, but I was becoming discoraged and depressed every time I went to church instead of being reinvigorated to fight for my faith. I stopped playing in the youth praise band (which I notice has since fallen apart completely), I stopped going to youth group, and I started going to the adult Bible study instead of the high school one. I now learn things in Sunday School, and can work Wednesday nights, and don't get depressed about my church as much.

Oh I cannot wait until next year, living in the dorms. My plan is to seek out some fellow Christians for a daily Bible Study, and become involved in a local church that is alive and vibrant. I want to have a Christian roommate so we could do a little devotion each night before bed, but I doubt that will happen. Eating breakfast every day with fellow believers while praying and studying is a definite possibility though. It would also keep me in a good schedule for school. I miss Bible studies. I don't care about a teacher reading me something out of a concordia publishing house book about what I should apply to my life because the Bible says so. I want to read a chapter with my fellow soldiers and attempt as a group to decipher it, and then tell eachother how WE think it can apply to our lives. Oh how I long for that.

God bless.
Derek

This is currently my away message:

God died to forgive you for your sins, so you can live eternally with him in heaven.

Good Friday is the remeberance of the immense suffering that our God went through to save me, you, and everyone. He cared so deeply about a single human soul that he sacrificed his divinity and allowed death to take him human body.

I cannot wait until Easter!

spring break

I took the test. I survived. I think I did well, considering.

I am very happy with at least three of the grad students at UC physics. One of them completely explained Faraday's law to me in five minutes and I think I aced that problem on the test thanks solely to him. Thanks for all of the prayers if you are one of the people who was praying.

I worry about Brock though. He is one of the few physics majors who is not an arrogant jerk or a socially inept genius. He is the one with the fewest fries in his happy meal, if you know what I mean, but he is probably the one I get along with the best. I think he failed this quarter and that means I lost my lab monkey... partner... yeah. And it means I have to hang out with the arrogant or socially inept ones more. They are cool, kind of, but prolonged exposure, just like with plutonium, can have an adverse effect on the quality of ones life. I will either end up MORE arrogant and conceited, or MORE socially inept.

Triple Woes and Physics

This is finals week. I do not have finals until Friday, and as such did not need to wake up at any known time Monday. As you may see in the previous post, I stayed up a bit late Sunday night. Monday morning I was to sleep in until about 11, then hop on down to UC and attempt to comprehend physics. At 7:15 Monday morning, my dad got a flat tire. I was in the rescue party. My mom and I got there, handed him one car, and had one broken car and one car to go home in. Triple A said that a tow truck had been dispatched and would arrive in 15 minutes. Upon hearing this information, I decided I could wait 15 minutes, drive home, and sleep for a few more hours and still get down to UC. The truck got there at 9:45, and I was home by 10:00. I slept until 3:00. I spend half an hour failing to get anywhere in physics, and subsequently went to work. I . Hate. AAA. Ruined my whole day.

Physics is hard.

I have a problem

Two hours ago I decided to stop doing physics homework and go to bed. This computer was on the way, so I decided to check my email. Jordan I hate you. You signed me up for facebook and then misspelled my name. So I have that all set up correctly now. Then someone linked to their Xanga, so I spent some time reading recent posts in my freinds' Xangas.

This week is final week. Not finals week, I only have one. Unfortunately it is physics, fortunately I don't have it until friday. Unfortunately I have 6 sections of homework to finish in that time, and then comprehend it all.

God is awsome. If you don't already know that he is awsome and are not currently plumbing the infinite depths of his awsomeness, you need to more than you will ever know.

I shall now re-attempt to make it to sleep. Tomorrow I shall make my way to UC and study. Any prayers about life in general would be appriciated.

What to do....

So yeah, what should I do?

I am currently waiting for the shower to become vacant so I can wash the newest layer of chlorine off of it. I am occupying myself with a bowl of food (I don't know what it is called, it has macaroni style noodles, some hamburger meat, corn and green beans in a reddish sauce and it eats like a soup) and an accompanying spoon. My day has been interesting. Wait, I lied.

I guarded the old person pool (filling the hot tub with water after maintenance was kind of fun) for four hours. I went home, ate, watched an episode of Stargate SG-1 (I love TiVO, it was part two of "Tok'ra") with my dad, then played Chrono Trigger for about two hours. I should have used that time to do something productive like write a french paper, do some physics homework, order a laptop, practice piano, or fill out the insane amount of forms I have to do. But I got magic spells! Then I took a detour to the prehistoric age to test them out because I don't want to fight my way through that annoying tunnel in the present. *Ah-hem.* I then went to the Y to work out with Nate, he is helping me overload so I can build muscle for summer swim season. Then I swam about an 800 before my ride called me out. I did receive an interesting note at work, I may discuss that situation at length in a later entry.

Is it not odd that my French Professor has the border between an A and an A- at 96%? I would hate to get a 95% in the class and get an A- for it. On a related note, if anyone gets the joke that is the url for this blog, I applaud you.